I would like to be a shrinking woman. I currently weigh 28 stone or at least I did when I got weighed on Monday. I am about to start Lighter Life in an effort to find the person I once was before I over indulged and got locked in this sumo suit I ashamedly call my body.
This is the beginning as its the start of my Lighter Life journey and its the end as I would like it to be the end of me being fat and unhappy and full of self hatred.
I plan on posting weekly photos of my progress so I can hopefully watch myself shrinking and look back and think see....you can do it!!
So where am I at currently?
I hate the way I look
I am ashamed of how fat I am
I hate that people stare at me when I wobble down the street
I cant even walk round the block without my back hurting
My feet are inflating and look hideous
I find it hard to reach my feet to cut my toenails so they sometimes look like claws!
My legs look like they are beginning to rot as I am developing leg ulcers
I sit on my arse too much as my back hurts whenever I try to do anything
I have no motivation
I have no will power
I have lost the ability to give a toss
But on the flip side....
I have a very lovely man that loves me and wants to support me
I want to make this work
I want to stop eating myself to death
I want to be able to walk around all day without feeling like my spine is going to snap
I want to hold my head high and not be ashamed of myself
I want to be the person I was a few years ago if not an even better and happier one.
My first meeting is on Monday and the diet starts on Wednesday
Watch This Space!!
